you are the wind

May. 24th, 2017 17:49
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Chandra Prasad, On Borrowed Wings (2007): in the 1930s US Northeast, a rich-WASP-family mother and Italian American quarrier father had two children. Charles was homeschooled rigorously to attend college; Adele, quicker of memory, was always told she'd marry a quarrier, even as her father began dying from the stone dust before middle age. Then something happens, and Adele takes Charles's place as a Yale frosh in drag.

I had expected rather worse. (Sorry.) As it is, the narrative has about the critical depth of a '00s jdrama: the story lines up some dots, then leaves the reader/viewer to connect them or search for more while it flits to the next scene. Adele cannot help but activate dots as she muses upon quarry misfortunes, her mother's iron recollections of being a rich girl, or the entirely new landscape of Yale, where the maids in the dining hall remind her of herself, taking in laundry a few months prior. But Adele is only a bit too thin as a character enabling the writer's gaze to slice and parry some dust bunnies of privilege; it's fine. It's actually a relief to have the cross-dressing topos given straight so that one may focus upon 1936 as depicted: Adele takes a workstudy placement involving eugenic research which she (incredibly) bends from the inside out. The love interest is obligatory, probably the weakest aspect.

Adele's heritage is based upon that of one of Prasad's parents. I borrowed Wings from the library after seeing a ref to Mixed, an anthology of short stories edited by Prasad which the local libraries don't have.

Quick life updates

May. 24th, 2017 02:13
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Now that I'm back on lamotrigine as a mood stabilizer I am much more present in the world, and able to think and write and read and interact with people way more than I have been for the last several years. This makes me very happy. And other people are noticing too. The psych and my shrink, both of whom first met me while I was on the olanzapine have commented that I seem like a completely different person from the one they first met.

I went to see my psych last week for a followup on the new/old meds and said, "I feel like I have my brain back, but I don't much like the brain I got back." In particular I'm having trouble with executive dysfunction and a lot of hyperfocusing.

I told the psych this and she looked at me, fidgeting in her office chair, and said, "have you ever considered that you might have ADHD?"

As it happens I have been pondering that very thing of late. But it's notable that I am 37 years old and she is the FIRST medical professional ever to suggest this diagnosis to me. See also: ADHD presenting very differently in women than in men.

Since I'm still having trouble sleeping without taking low-dose seroquel, we're going to focus on trying to sort that out first, but when I see her again in August we're going to discuss the possibility of going on something for ADHD.

This, by the way, would make all three of us upstairs both bipolar and ADHD. We're all medicated for at least one of those diagnosis but still, there's a reason our household is sometimes, um, volatile. Add in our various physical ailments and Rayne's PTSD and it's a wonder we're functioning at all.

To a certain extent this is part of why I'm poly. I need to have and be part of a support structure not just an individual partner. I think in pairs none of our relationships would be workable, but together we balance each other out quite nicely.

The really awful thing I can't talk about is possibly less awful than it was when I made my last post. Still awful, but no longer horrifyingly impressively awful. This has taken a lot of weight off our household.

I had a shrink appointment today and she said, "have you ever considered grad school?" The answer to which is a somewhat complicated yes. When I was in undergrad I always assumed I would go on to get my masters, probably in Intercultural Communications, but then I fucked up my last semester of university and that kind of crashed and burned. Currently, we're not in a financial/family place where me going to grad school would make sense, but yes, the possibility has entered my mind again.

We leave for Wiscon in the morning, and I am not actually packed, because reasons, so I should probably stop talking about stuff and sort through my clothes and figure out what I'm taking.

Capitalism Will Eat Your Children

May. 22nd, 2017 22:32
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Most of my playlists get their names from a song lyric or phrase in a book. This one is an exception.

This is my revolution playlist's older, slightly more jaded sister. But despite the name and the sentiment I don't think it's terribly depressing. Just crabby. And couldn't we all use some crabby every now and then? This is also longer than most of my playlists: 26 songs or an hour and forty four minutes of music.

Capitalism Will Eat Your Children
Zip file on dropbox (146MB) or Individual tracks on dropbox

There's A War Going On For Your Mind - Flobots
Na Na Na (Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na) - My Chemical Romance
Walking Down Madison - Kirsty MacColl Feat. Aniff Cousins
Bankrobber - The Clash
Dance or Die - Janelle Monáe Feat. Saul Williams
How Long? - Wild Strawberries
The Trouble With Normal - Bruce Cockburn
Death To My Hometown - Bruce Springsteen
Jacob's Ladder (Not In My Name) - Chumbawamba
16 Tons - Tom Morello
Save This House - Spirit Of The West
The Economy Is Suffering...Let It Die - Anti-Flag
(Antichrist Television Blues) - Arcade Fire
Burundi - Saul Williams Feat. Emily Kokal
Weight of the World - Martyn Joseph
Wings - Josh Ritter
Oh My God - Michael Franti & Spearhead
Reject All American - Bikini Kill
Pink White House - PRIESTS
Jam Tomorrow - Oysterband
Little Boxes - Walk Off The Earth
The Kids Are Ready To Die - The Airborne Toxic Event
The Sound of Silence - Disturbed
Come On Forest Fire (CPI Mix) - Rae Spoon
Waiting For The Great Leap Forward - Billy Bragg
This Is Why We Fight - The Decemberists

I'd appreciate a comment if you download, just so I can know how much interest there is :)

Thick As Thieves

May. 22nd, 2017 21:35
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I have at least four posts I want to make before we leave for Wisconsin Wednesday morning, so let's start with the shortest and easiest one!

MEGAN WHALEN TURNER FANS COME TALK TO ME ABOUT THICK AS THIEVES OMG!!!

I just want ALL the fic RIGHT NOW. It doesn't matter that it's a tiny book fandom and the Thick As Thieves hasn't been out long enough for much fic to be written yet. Rationality has no place in my desires, and my desire is for ALL the fic, ESPECIALLY if it's slashy.

Presume spoilers in comments. At least, I hope there will be spoilers in comments ;)

Random observations

May. 22nd, 2017 20:56
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• I've ordered, from Japan, a tenugui towel with an udon noodle design. It seemed like a good idea at the time, and to be fair the shipping was only £1.50. All the designs are amazing, but I was particularly struck by this. (Tell me that Yuuri Katsuki doesn't take one to the rink with him.)

• I also seem to be buying excessive quantities of culottes. (Well, two pairs, but you know.) For once I'm on trend. I know I have to buy now, before they disappear for another twenty years. I hate the fashion cycle.

Victor isn't the only one who has a phone case of himself

• This weekend I'm going to Belgium, and it's now clear that it's going to be boiling hot, like 28C/83F on Sunday. Currently reconsidering my packing list, plans, life choices, etc. (Don't laugh, people from elsewhere.) I still plan on climbing the Wall of Geraardsbergen but I'll have to do it early in the morning. And, you know, on foot. Needless to say.

fiber monday

May. 21st, 2017 20:00
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Status: Tidblad for MIL is nearly at midpoint. ___Sand has two completed sleeves and the right shoulder width!! Body is paused for a break near 70% to let my finger heal: half-cotton yarn and a tendency to push the working needle back through = callus, stress-burst skin, and a bit of a bruise beneath them. Oops.

Having attempted to sew exactly zero of the patterns for tops that I've eyed since two years ago, I've renewed contemplation of knitting some: not cardigans but the layer beneath, as complement to the few cotton buttondowns left from grad-school teaching, the few linen buttondowns bought since (pricier), and the usually plain T-shirts to which I still default.

Read more... )

It's fine to have more ideas than time: beats boredom.

WisCon

May. 21st, 2017 17:05
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I am not staying at the hotel this year. We'll see whether I end up deciding that's TERRIBLE or not. I justified it last year b/c I was co-chairing, but this year I have no such excuse lol.

I am not on any panels. I will appear on stage briefly during dessert salon/GOH speeches.

This year, unlike last year, I do hope to attend some panels, though.

For the first time since I started going, I think, I have not taken any time off from work. Having been on vacation for the entire month of April, I felt too guilty to request any, lol.
This means that I will not be around for the Gathering or any of the first programming items, but shouldn't affect much else.
I'll likely miss the GOH readings at A Room of One's Own Thursday as well, because I'll be horseback riding.

This is my 9th WisCon, but my 10th anniversary of when I first attended!

I don't discuss this much outside of locked entries, but I've not been in a great place mentally this past week or so. So if I seem subdued, it's not you; it's me.

some things

May. 20th, 2017 21:15
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* If pre-Bronze Age mitteleuropäisch archaeology interests you (the chunk preceding what's sometimes called Hallstatt culture), check out http://bellbeakerblogger.blogspot.com/

* Osugi Ren, a solid character-actor who seems to work regularly, plays the eponymous father in a new jdrama called Final Fantasy XIV: Hikari no otōsan (father of light). Summary: Ren's character takes slightly early retirement after a work-focused life, and he and his son bond while playing FF14.

I would like to know who or what has jumped a shark here, but not enough to try to watch the show.

* [personal profile] skygiants has pointed out that I Hear Your Voice seems to have a subtext of Ace Attorney characters and lines. Reading recaps for the first two hours' worth of Suspicious Partner (now broken into four eps instead of two due to the introduction of midpoint commercial breaks), I wonder---it seems to have a similar evocation.

* I'm convincing myself slowly to pick up Persona 4 again, this time to finish it. The game's internal calendar follows the (Japanese) school year; I've played from April through sometime in fall on a PS2, then restarted (P4Golden) on a Vita and played from April till a bit shy of December break. Both saved games remain available, but I'm much more likely to use a Vita during summertime than an old-style, extra heat-generating PS3---which also makes P4G more attractive than the recently released Persona 5.

* If I do resume P4G, I'll continue not watching tv. :P Kinkyū torishirabeshitsu S2 is emerging; Star Trek: Discovery---which partner seems to want to watch more than I do---doesn't start till the fall. Or perhaps I'll keep playing Bonza National Geographic, a word game plus occasional jigsaw puzzle for smartphones, and reading syndicated feeds. I'd rather regain a tolerance for reading books. I have a book post for Wed, actually, after writing briefly about a book read more than a month ago, but it's the very last queued post. *whistles*

* Still sort of coughing---noticeably less even than last week. Zeno's paradox lives. Let's see how I do with three nights of single parenting before I declare the pneumonia gone.

age

May. 20th, 2017 18:50
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Hard to believe I'll be 2^6 years old soon. It's the highest power of two I expect to live to see.

some things

May. 16th, 2017 22:14
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* Having run out of Ace Attorney fics I'm willing to skim, I've turned to sampling the trickle of Shirogane Naoto-focused Persona 4 fics. That's this week's "reading Wednesday." Most of the fics about the game's protagonist ship the protag with Yōsuke, which I can't understand at all except as a fannish emanation; Yōsuke is the closest the game has to an everyperson, so people write themselves in that way, sometimes. But. Anyway, fewer writers seem willing to tackle writing Naoto unless they have an idea of what to make of an overly serious, precocious, hereditary-detective, gender-fluid 17yo (P4 takes place at a high school). The prevailing ship is Naoto/Kanji, which is all right.

(The internet suggests that the game uses 白鐘 for Shirogane---鐘 and not the kane I'm used to as 金, K gim/geum. Shiro = white, though one may take any of several semantic forking paths thence. I suppose 白鐘 may be meant ± as "clear bell"; it took some prodding of Wiktionary to get there. Please object if one may not reach there from here.)

I've also begun the slow process of closing agèd Yuletide browser tabs: anything longer than 9k words is downloaded as epub, which ...tends to get it read more quickly than something in a browser tab. Whatever works. If I'm still feebler of mind than normal-for-patient after that, perhaps I'll sift for more videogame-fandom fics, but there's really quite a pile of stashed Yuletide.

* Reason made me two Mother's Day cards, one of which she presented at 6:22 a.m. because "It's important!" She's been making birthday cards somewhat in advance for agemates who invite her to parties; as she began coloring something for partner in anticipation of Father's Day, she made aggrieved noises about how no one makes cards for her, so I said we'd start to observe Children's Day, which falls near her half-birthday. Since we're past it this year, I'm coloring her a postcard from the Pepin Arabian Design set. She's already colored most of those and the Turkish set; she prefers the latter, which are less tile-like. Some are complex, but the spaces aren't as tiny as in the Batsford ones, and postcards are less than half the size of most coloring-book pages. I remember that it sometimes took me several weeks to finish a page in the Bellerophon coloring books (I had Inca/Aztec/Maya and Ancient Ireland) when I was seven or eight. Bellerophon's were a bit nicer than Dover's---no idea whether that's true now.

WisCon

May. 15th, 2017 08:52
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I'll be at WisCon next weekend!

I'm arriving sometime Thursday night and will be leaving sometime Monday afternoonish (I think). I intend for it to be a chill WisCon, in which I attend panels & livetweet (from my writer account, though), but I will be one of the models at the live drawing workshop. If you have modeling tips (clothes are staying on), I'd appreciate them as I'm still putting together my 15 poses. As of right now, I have...one.

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